Tuesday, January 31, 2006
hello.food was good. really awesome. been eating alottt, & i think i'm starting to fall sick, hoho. didn't exactly have fun, but it was,. mm,. okay la.
now, i have to do my history asssignment. argh, i really wanted to go shopping or lyk rest or smth. but.. aiyaaa. it's graded. and, i told myself i wont screw this year up,. so well.. i'd better put in the effort, at least. so lyk at least when the end of the year comes and i get back all my assignments and grades and all, i'd have no regrets, even if i did badly. yeahh.
ahh, more & more people are falling sick, and everyone's taking a really long time to recover. take care everyone!
boo. we're drifting apart, day by day. it's bad, but i think i'm the only one who notices. i bet it doesn't bother _ in any way la. i bet _ can't even sense any difference.
wehhh, i'm tired.
but aiyaaa. i'm gonna go be a good girl now, HAHA. i'll do history assignment, bathe, & then learn tingxie, & then study for chem. & then SLEEP, if not i'm sure to fall asleep during class tmr la.
eunice.
do you love me?
Sunday, January 29, 2006
happy new year eunice! love yas!Saturday, January 28, 2006
The man on the moon waves goodnight,dark sky surrenders the day,
silver bright stars open their eyes,
listen to what they say!
Rest your little body now,
your day of play is done,
time to count those little sheep,
start off with number one.
Take the bus to sleepy town,
you suddenly hit a bump.
Then find yourself awake again,
you feel your body jump.
Back to sleep you finally go,
you dream you're having fun,
little bright light shines on in,
you awaken by the sun.
Anna Copeland
tonight, i miss thailand, a lil. ♥
today was scary, i'm still a lil freaked. i hope i can sleep soundly tonight..
somehow, i feel so enola today. kinda tired & moody i guess.
a week has passed, & i really miss you, but i know can't let you know. & yet,. i can't let you go..
goodnight,.
Friday, January 27, 2006
GONG XI FA CAI ! (:hong pao na lai! :D
wahh, so tired man.
& on top of all the bai nian-ing, i've got history assignment, home ed worksheet / assessment, and lit project to do, & chem assessment to study for, & alot to catch up on, esp for bio geog lit & chinese. AND, shopping to do, cos so many birthdays are coming up. AHH, & i'm tired already.
today, i went shopping with mabel in heels. she thinks they're too high too, ha. ohwells, i still love them. we were supposed to go holland to chill out & stuff, but we ended up going to town cos the rest were there. the bus ride there was mm,. interesting, ha. shopping was so xin1 ku3, cos it was straineous walking in those heels, ha. i've learnt my lesson - NEVER GO SHOPPING IN HEELS. THEY SPOIL THE FUN! anyways, we didn't really have our good hearty chat, cos somehow, we were really tired. but i guess it's okay, though we didn't exactly have the time of our lives, i definately enjoyed my twin's company that i've missed so much! ha. ok, our first stop was wisma, and our second stop was taka. conclusion: we are SOOOO directionally challenged! especially me! ugh,. so irritating. k, then we headed to heeren, met the rest at four skin, & mab bought a top and i bought jo her very belated christmas present, and i bought one side for myself. ha, we bought robot earrings. the head and arms and legs can move! haha, jo took the black side and i took the silver side. i duno, i thought if i bought two sides for both me & jo, when we wear, it'll look overdone. so yeah, one side, GOSH I WANT ANOTHER EARHOLE. it sounds like fun, heh. anyways, heidi came, & then jo & i took another pic, & then mab & i left. we went back to wisma to try to catch a cab, & we ended up queuing for super long at the taxi stand for a cab can! goodness, my legs were killing me. finally, when it was FINALLY our turn to get on the cab, we were SOOO happy, gosh. we cabbed to mab's house, & i met mab's dad! he's so cool! he was wearing this shirt that said "save water; drink beer". oh man, so cool! haha, mabe's family somehow seem like my other family, esp mab & her mum. hehh (:
lame as it may seem, i updated my friendster profile, and i deleted most of my pics on friendster, but i left one there of my bro and i, and i dont know why, ha. ah whatever, [click here]
hm, i've been getting quite little sleep since school began, and i think it's starting to show. my face looks so bad with eyebags and all, ugh, and i've been stressing out really easily, and getting high really easily. so, tonight, i shall go to bed extra extra early and then wake up a lil later tmr morning, do my history assignment. hopefully i can finish before i go for web, cos after that till school reopens, i won't have the time to do any assignments blahblah. so yeah, hope i can finish.
ha, i bet no one really bothers to read through my long posts.
whatever, i'm tired , my feet hurt, & so i'm going to sleep.
bye.
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
Hah. Andrea & Jo-ann came over to my place to do our lit on Saturday. Sam didn't come, & I can't rmb why. She could't make it today too, & I can't rmb why. Anways, after half an hour, we decided to give up and leave it till tuesday (today), so i showed them my lil room, & jo said she liked my ear rings, ha, & then we had lunch & watched a lil bit of "life is beautiful", & then we ended up going downstairs to play pool, or rather, attempt to play pool. While we were playing, this little boy & his dad were watching us from behind the glass pannel thing. They were hosting a party in the function room, which was just opposite the pool room. It was so stressful cos we couldn't play for nuts and for me, it was my first time. I didn't even know how to hold the thing can? Lol.Then, later, this small little boy came, and the small boy was so cute, we went crazy. So we took pics through the glass pannel, & the other boy from earlier on joined the small boy, thinking he was a star. Ha.
Ha, we laughed so weirdly cos we were really cracking up.
And then, the rest of the story isn't too nice lah. Basically what happened was that the small boy wanted to come in, so the little boy opened the door. Turns out the little boy was some pro at pool, so he taught us. At first, it was ok. Then, he got quite rude and stuff, and we got really *cough* hungry *cough*. And then he invited his friend in. His friend was short and fat with glasses and he carried this boy boy bag, but gosh he was really good at pool. Lol. Must be some rich kid. Then, the two little boys were really mean to their friend, and they didn't let her in. I wanted to let the girl in, cos I thought they were being mean, and besides, the room was under our booking, so it's none of their business who I let in. So I tried to open the door, and that little boy had the guts to push me and lock the door can. Like, after being so so rude and after totally taking over my turn and just spoiling the fun, he had the guts to do that. Gr. So I got quite *cough* hungry *cough*, and I told him that I WANTED TO LET THE GIRL IN, and i stared at him. He did the same thing again. So I repeated myself. And I stared at him. Then he let go of the door and moved aside. Bah. By then the three of us were really *cough* hungry *cough*, but thank goodness the kid's duno who (some adult) came and called them over to the function room for their party. Hah. When we said we were *cough* hungry *cough*, the little boy really thought we were hungry, and he said "you can crash our party. there's food. " HA. We have manners - we don't crash parties, thank you very much.
Uhh, yeah, that's about it lah. You can read Jo's blog for a better post about it cos HAH my recount sucks. Jo's blog is http://www.yoursympathy.blogspot.com/
Ok, this post is pointless. But it kinda helped me to destress a little. That night was good and bad. Good cos missions dinner thing was good. Bad, cos _ . Mm :/
Bahh,
):
Sunday, January 22, 2006
oh my gosh..Friday, January 20, 2006
wow, they're cool. i wanna be like that, yehh (:check out barlowgirl, a christian band
http://www.barlowgirl.com/
http://www.purevolume.com/barlowgirl
Barlowgirl has a passion to write songs about the journey that God has taken them on in their lives. Our main topics include trusting God, purity, and our stand on not dating.
Trust- "We believe that God is calling everyone to live a life that is fully surrendered to Him so that He can do His work in us and begin to show us His true purpose for our lives. We're definitely not saying 'we've mastered this concept and now it's your turn', but instead that this is a daily process and a journey that all of us will be on forever."
Purity- "In a world that constantly bombards us with impurity and immodesty, we feel called to take a stand against what the world is telling us is acceptable. Especially in the area of clothing and modesty."
Not dating- "We believe that God has one perfect man already chosen for us; therefore we have no need to worry ourselves in searching for him. When the time is right we know God will bring us together. In the meantime we are not hiding in a closet avoiding all males. We are still living our lives, just without the pressure of having to have a boyfriend."
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
yeah.
& i let you go.
♥
Stace:
Hey, sorry we can't meet up this week. Guess our schedules clash and all so.. Mmm :/ Either way, love you loads big sis. Thanks for sticking by me and for being there and all and yeah, thanks for everything. Take care, yes? I know what. We'll go service together on Saturday, ok? Bah, I miss you.
For you : (p.s. i resized everything freehand so heh might be a lil out of proportion.)
(:
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messy haired alien
alien heads! haha..
neat haired alien (;
cute kid #1!
THE FREAKY HOKEY POKEY ELMO.
the men waiting for their women. hahhahaha..
B&J'S!!! :D
TOYSSS!!! hahaha :D
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HAHAHAHHAHAHA..
hahahhahahahhahaha., i still think it's darn funny
THE CUTE LIL KID #2!
the band that was pretty gooood!
cute kid #3!!
high on good music and cute kids :D
waha (:
(:
cute kid #4! :D
why'd you have to go and make things so CONSTIPATEDD.
we had a good day.
LET'S GO OUT AGAIN! :D
one of these days when school's out and we're both free, i mean. ohwells :/
LOVEYA. (:
you cheer me up and make me smileee. ILOVEYOU, MISS SPECIAL (:
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
Everything you say to meTakes me one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
I need a little room to breathe
Cause I'm one step closer to the edge
And I'm about to break
Monday, January 16, 2006
Who am I?That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me
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You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
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You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
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You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
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Thank you Jesus, for loving me. ♥
Sunday, January 15, 2006
Ok, I've just randomly read some of my archives. Gee, I'm such a weird & emo person. That's exactly who I don't wanna be. Lol.Saturday, January 14, 2006
):something just has to happen everyday. e-v-e-r-y-d-a-y. either something different, or something repeated. either way, it's been getting the better of me.
i should just close the door, lock it, and walk away.
forget blogging. forget everything.
ha.
talk about drama.
i just wish you'd rmb me.
Friday, January 13, 2006
Looking at God's lovely creation calms the storm in me.
I love you Jesus, deep down in my heart.
Thursday, January 12, 2006
Ah, I'm at it again.Down down down down.
:/
Dear God,
For Quan Mei's family, Father God please help them and ease their pain and bring healing and restoration, and courage and strength. May You provide for their every need. May you be their comfort, and their light admiss the darkness of their situations. Lord, may you teach them to put their trust & faith in You and You alone, and may Your Name be glorified through their family. Lord, may they feel your awesome presence and the reality of Jesus Christ and His everlasting eternal love for them oh so real in their lives. May Your Name be glorified.
Father Lord, give me clarity, guidance, diligence, determination and boldness and also courage. And teach me to be a joy unto others, no matter how blahblahed things may seem. Lord, teach me to be joyful always, and to put my trust in You. Teach me to bless those around me. Thank You Lord for giving me a smile every day, and for my lovely friends who love and care for me so much and have been such a blessing unto me and yeah all my lovely friends whom You love so much and whom I love so much. Thank You Jesus for them. Lord, I'm clining on to you.
In Jesus' name I pray,
Amen.
Lord, You there? I'm so scared.
Wednesday, January 11, 2006
Bah. Bad night ):
So much for going to bed early tonight.
So much for everything I thought I had.
Yes, even I tricked myself.
Pissed off over some matter. Really pissed.
And as for the other matter? I don't know, I'm not sure, maybe I should be happy.. and yet I'm.. not exactly very happy. I dont know, I guess.. Ah, I dont know. ): Coeway was right. But still.. I don't know :/
There's smth wrong with my comp. It's lagging like siao. Yes, even my comp doesnt like me. It'll be so so not funny if this stupid computer has a virus.
It's raining so so heavily tonight. Good, no one will hear me.
I still have things left undone, and a foul mood to deal with.
Bye.
do you love me?
Ahhh. So sleepy today :/
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Hello.Last night, I did my math homework. It took much longer than I thought it would, cos I kept on making careless mistakes. And then, I read my history textbook chap4. And then I went on the phone. Then after that I continued reading chap4 for history, and then I came online, and jojo helped me create an LJ, and then I had to go off the comp, so I went to my room and wrote a lil note, and then I went to bed at 3am, cos I got scared.
This morning, I went to the gym for about.. 45 mins? It was pretty okay. Somehow, the exercise I did wasn't as strenuous as I thought it would be, cos I did the exact same thing before, and that was when I was much fitter, and I almost died. Hm, maybe it's cos the machine thing is lousy so after a while the resistance & difficulty level kinda wears off? Hmm,.
Yeah. And then I went to town. It was pretty okay. We took the train there. Went to cine, had lunch at BK, & watched the movie "family stone", and then we went to heeren, & we took neoprints, & there was this really rude couple being really superficial and assholic, especially the guy. Like wth. I got quite annoyed. Ah, but whatever. Then after that we headed home. Yeah. It was pretty okay la. Time passed a lil slowly, yet the day passed by so quickly, just like 2005, lol. Oh ya, "family stone" was kinda weird. As in, it didn't exactly end the way I had thought it would be, and the couples fell in & out & in of love, changing partners in just one night, which was kinda.. Hmm,. Oh-kay,.
Bah, I think there's something wrong with me today. Didn't really feel as um.. cheery and happy and excited as usual and as I thought I'd be. I don't know, I just didn't really feel like myself, for no apparent reason. I think. I'm tired.
Ok, I'm sure. I'm not gonna break my new year's resolutions, at least not for now. That'll be .. yi4 shi2 chong1 dong4. And then everything'll turn out really screwed up. Right now, the status of "best friends" is good enough for me (: Yeah.
Ok. Tonight, I have to do chinese. I have to finish reading my chinese book, which I really really have difficulty understanding, lol. And then, IF there's still time, which I doubt there'll be, I'll study the first chapter of chem, or make history notes for the first chapter, or study the first chapter of chinese.
Ok, I'd better go. I made resolutions on doing well this year and on studying hard & smart and I don't intend to let myself down.
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Oh no oh no. Enen says that the chinese book test was hard. Oh no oh no. I'd better go and read the last story properly and do a little recap on the other two stories.
AND.
My mother says she wants me to go for the maths olympiad training thing. Oh no oh no. I hope it isn't too tough and stressful and all. Hm, it's on Thursdays.
Ahh, all of a sudden I feel really scared. As in, ahh, I don't know, a little uncertain, and um.. ahh I don't know. I just don't want to make any mistakes or screw up in any way. I don't want to let God or anyone else down. I don't want to hurt God, or anyone else, including myself. I want to make the right choices and do the right things. And, you know, give the people who love me a real reason to be proud of me for once?
Ok, I don't make sense again. And I've just wasted 15 minutes, and my mood. I'm strange.
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Monday, January 09, 2006
Yay, I had a good time with mabel today. Yes, we finally had our more or less undisturbed hearty chat. Haven't talked like that in a long time. It was good, mmhmm. We haven't talked for how long alrd can. Mabel! Write your note, ok? Put some thought into it, it might just make a difference (:Hm, I hope I can go out tmr, lol.
Wow, I've actually written down a lot of things to study today. And it's 7:30 already. Lol, I'd better get started soon, eh. And hopefully, tomorrow morning, I'll go to the gym to exercise for a while, and then after that go out, and then I don't know.
Ok, I don't make sense.
Ah, I'm tired, already. It was so hard to stay awake during chappel & compter studies today.
Ok, enough procrastination. I told myself I'm gonna study hard this year & I don't want to slack the beginning of the year away & stress up & regret like crazy when the end of the year comes. So, I shall study hard. Ok, I'm going to read my history text book and then have dinner and then do my math and then study chinese & if there's time, read through chem.
<3
Sunday, January 08, 2006
DISCLAIMER: Not everything here is true, if it is, it's just pure coincidence. I just did this out of pure boredom, so don't take the results seriously, thank you very much. Have a nice day. (;---
Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.
The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.
How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
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The Real You
Here is the analysis:
You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.
You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.
Your peers think of you as a fun person, but sometimes you can be a little irresponsible. You can be somewhat childish, and can try to ignore the fact that you will one day need to really grow up and be a mature adult! Perhaps you could start reading good books; they might help you look at the world in a different light. You do want to be taken seriously, right?
Your boyfriend thinks that you are a real doll but this is not a totally positive thing. Sometimes you can be a bit too sweet, and come across as being helpless. If you're like this too frequently, your boyfriend and other people are likely to get tired of you having to rely on them all the time.
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What's your personality love style?
Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.
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What type of personality do you have?
Here is the analysis:
Kind and Gentle
Your kindness is your charm - you are also gentle and sweet. Everybody likes to be around people with your personality. Like a psychologist, people like to talk to you to discuss their problems because you are proper and discrete, as well as confident. You look mature and people respect you. People with this kind of character are few and far between.
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What does being a friend really mean to you?
You value your friendships: 70%
You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.
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Are You Nosy?
Nosy Level: 50%
You may seem to be a nosy person to some people, but actually you are quite a serious person who's not at all interested in gossip. You just like to know what's going on around you. It's a natural interest and you can get offended when people tell you they think you're a sticky-beak.
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A present for your boyfriend
Here is the analysis:
You have strong attitudes towards things. You often manipulate a story you've heard. It is not completely lying. You just add things to what you have heard and retell it in a different way
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Jealousy Test
Jealousy Level: 35%
You harbor no feelings of jealousy
You are calm and often think differently compared to other people. You don't get jealous because you believe that other people's business is theirs alone. So what if they're beautiful and score all the guys? That's their luck! Some people may think of you as being a bit of a loner.
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Cinderella
How you control your husband, who will lead the family and who will be led?
You tend to adopt traditional roles of a fine woman. You listen to what your husband tell you attentively and enjoy being guided and led by him.
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The Bus
Here is the analysis:
You are more concerned with yourself rather than with others. Superficially, you are a quiet and imaginative person. As you choose to sit at the back, you can converse with your friends although you do not talk a lot.
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The Hang Glider
Here is the analysis:
You love fair relationship with your boyfriends. You like a simple wedding. It can merely be cohabitation without wedding, or you live separately with your husband. Despite all these, you will still have a good time together until you become a grandmother or a grandfather. Then, you are still good friends who always living the rest of your life together.
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The Squirrel
Here is the analysis:
You speak without even thinking. "You are definitely not my type!" will probably be the nicest thing you might say. If they catch you at the wrong time, your reply could be much worse.
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Who is your dream guy?
Here is the analysis:
According to your answers; if you are not kidding, you are too complicated. Sorry, we are unable to offer the analysis. Press Back button on you browser, check ONE question that you were not completely sure and try again with a different answer that you think it would be correct.
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How well do you react?
Here is the analysis:
You recover quickly from disappointment. But when you feel that things are going wrong, you will react immediately.
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How deep is your love?
Depth: 53%
You have him in a corner of your heart. Don't lie to yourself; he's your special guy. Take good care of your heart. You still have a long way to go. Always remember that love has two edges. Being apart for a while might be a good chance to proof his love to you.
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How well will you survive in this wild world?
Here is the analysis:
Because of your kind nature, you always find it hard to turn down people in need. You always want to do so many things at once but eventually you might not achieve anything. Try to focus on one thing at a time and you will surely be successful.
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The Bridge
Here is the analysis:
You are persistent. It's not your way to get only half of your job done. You have an extreme character. You can be really nice to someone but mean to another. Anyway, your friends still like you the way you are.
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What's in the cave?
Here is the analysis:
You only think about having affairs with another but you will never cheat on your loved one in real life.
Ok, I admit. I'm not too sure what I'm looking for & what I want & stuff like that. Ha, this was really really unexpected.
Mm, we'll see what happens.
I'm looking forward though, yes I am. (:
Little by little, one step at a time..
He'll change our hearts & renew our minds.
haha, okay, i'm starting to believe this isn't just a lovely dream, haha. whoaaa, this is cool man.
(:
haha, i went out with kara in the late morning / early afternoon yesterday. haha, we had so much fun. first we went wisma, and then to heeren. and kara bought a top and we bought acessories, haha, and then we walked to far east, even though it was raining lightly. haha, and then at the traffic light, the rain got heavier, haha. and then we ran across the road haha and then when we got to shelter, it stopped raining. haha, so jack. and lyk by then we were totally drenched from head to toe haha and then at far east kara bought a necklace thing, haha, and we took neoprints, and then after that both of us had to rush off cos we were late.
haha, oh man, i havent done any of my situps & my jogging/running, & i havent done my homework & studying haha oh wells. haha, i'm growing fat & dumb. uh oh, that's not good.
nonono.
whoo hoo. this is too good to be true man, lol.
oh, but lyk, a week, 7 whole long days, sian la. haiyo.
ohwells (: still got 5 days left! :D
haha, is my blog really emo? oh no, that's not good, haha, i'll make it a happy place then! heh.
haha, okay, i need to go & pack my things for later, & then print the stuff for mabel (: haha, and then go to church. (: haha, oh no oh no, i'm going to be late! haha,
whoa! i'm posting long long posts again, haha!
<3
Saturday, January 07, 2006
haha, this feels like a dream (:ohoh, i had the weirdest dreams last night. i had alot of dreams last night. i kept on waking up and falling asleep again. i only rmb 3 dreams. the first dream was that i was in church dance, and i had to return the dance things to the dance office, so somehow i had to take some lift to the office and then the guy in the lift asked me, "are you healthy?" and i was like "um yeah" and then he started touching me and i kicked his balls but it seemed to have no effect on him lol and then my friends somehow walked into the lift and they made friends with him and then he stopped touching me and stuff lol and we became friends. how strange. and then i woke up. i was so scared, but i decided to go back to sleep and not disturb someone. and then my second dream was that i was late for shopping with carolyn cos i woke up lyk 4 hrs late and i felt so bad and disgusted with myself. and then somewhere in one of my dreams i dreamt that i was rushing out of some chappel like sanctuary and there was some service going on and there were some priests who were dressed in the typical olden days priests robes and with the tall long white hat thing and there was delieverence and all and there were people lying on the floor slained and all and then cos lyk i was rushing out of the sanctuary and then all of a sudden one of the priests walks over and grabs me and then i fall on the floor haha and then while i was on the floor i had a dream (haha, a dream in a dream. how cool eh. ) a dream that God says that He'll never leave me nor forsake me and in that dream He showed me how he was always there for me though i cldnt see him, haha, and then i woke up from my dream and then after that i went back to sleep again. cool eh, i had a dream in my dream. hahaha. and then when i woke up & got out of bed, i told mabel about my weird dreams and she laughed at me hahaha. i was so frustrated when i kicked the guys balls and it had no effect on him. i even jumped and kicked can. and all he did was to give me a cheegohpeh smile. wth man! my dreams freak me out.
haha, this still feels like a dream (:
i still can't believe it.
<3
Thursday, January 05, 2006
oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my goshoh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh
oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh
oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh
oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh
oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh
oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh
oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh
oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh
oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh
oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh
oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
haha, happy happy!
(:
I wish that you would show me (& all that I am & love) some respect.
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
Never let the future disturb you. You will meet it, if you have to, with the same weapons of reason which today arm you against the present.- Marcus Aurelius
Everything
Lifehouse
Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.
And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
my new year resolutions. a little late, but nevermind.in no particular order,
01. STAY SINGLE.
02. be 43kg by the end of the year
03. go running once a week
04. do at least 40 situps every other day
05. quit saying d, fk, mf, b, h, etc.
06. learn to say "no!", even if it makes me seem like a
07. study hard & smart for streaming
08. do well in school
09. go for another mission trip at the end of the year to thailand/bintan
10. never lose trust & faith in Him
11. try to be a joy, blessing, encourager & confidant to others, instead of a pain in the ass.
12. use proper english.
Monday, January 02, 2006
Gee, this really feels like the last day of my life.After today, I've gotta be much more serious about my studies cos I'm sec 2 and it's streaming year, so I can't afford to do badly. And then in sec 3, I have to do well cos it's the year before my o's. And then sec4'll be madness and I'd have to mug like there;s no tomorrow. And then after that? Prolly JC, where I'd still have to mug like there's no tomorrow. And then.. haha. I don't know where I'm going after that.
What kinda life is that la. :/
I don't wanna go back to school. ):
I'm not ready for a new year.
2005.. the year that has been very different from previous years. the year which i feel i have changed the most. the year where i lost and grew back my faith. the coming and going of friends.. 2005.. the year that had the worst ending. it definately hasn't been easy. and something tells me that 2006 and the years to come arent gonna get any easier. things are definately gonna get harder and yeah life will only get tougher and tougher but well.. i'm trusting in Him to see me through.
someone give me a ringring?
byebye.
gee, here's the updated 2006 class list. i think it's a lil different, though i havent figured in what way. so er,. heh. but not much of a difference to me la. aha.
Class: Sec 2M (2006)
ANDREA TAN RUWEN
CHEN JIAPING
CHEN SINI CHARMAINE
DAWN WONG YUN-CHENG
DENISE FOO HUI XIAN
DIANE ASHLEY SETO ERN
EUNICE GOH YI EN
EVANGELINE ANG JIA YIE
GAN LI PING PEARLY
GIM SO JIN
HANNAH LEE JINGWEN
HENG LI-YING DEANNA
HONG XINGTING
HUANG MIAOYU DOROTHY
JOANNA TAN TIAN-HUI
JOYCELYN YEO LIN
LEE YANG JING WILONA
LIM TIEN MEI CHERYL
LIM YIN TIAN
LOONG MEI YAN
NG XING NING SAMANTHA
PHUA SHU MIN HANNAH ALYSSA
QUEK SHING WEI SAMANTHA
SEOW HUEI-ERN SHANNEN
SHEENA CHUA MEI HUI
SIM TZE CHING BEATRICE
SOO HUI LING AMANDA
TAN LI YAN JO-ANN
TAN SIOK HUANG SARAH
TAN YAN ZHEN CHERYL
TANN XIN YAN KELLY
VANESA CHIA WEI YAN
VIVIENNE LIM YING EN
WONG SEE YUE
YEO REI-CHI LAUREN
YEONG SU WEN CHERYL
happy birthday jiejie dorothy. have a blessed 18th.
got kinda perked up at church today with all that crapping around from the church guys and plus the company of a special little girl who i managed to tame and well though she might not have known it, the tight hugs and tight cling-on-wont-let-gos that little girl gave me was really what i've needed and the little kiss from that little rascal really cheered me up. so thank you, my brave little girl. you were so brave today while the dentist removed your little tooth and yup i'm proud of you for being a good girl today.
but yet, this cant possibly be the way to solve things, right? just by chucking things aside & forgetting them and letting myself get perked up by lovely friends.
what you said went deep. i've tried taking it from your perspective and all and everything you said still doesn't make any good sense to me. whatever it is, i think what you said was really unnecessary and a simple sorry for once cant possibly be that hard for you, right? oh whatever.
i've learnt in the past year that it isn't a good idea to blog personal things.
but seriously,
thank you for the worst new years eve ever.
and thanks for proving to me that _ . i've learnt from my mistake, i'll never repeat it. trust me.
and yet.. i've learnt.. things aren't always how they seem. things are usually never how they seem.
ok, maybe this post is a lil uncalled for. but whatever. it's just not very plesant for me for these kinda things to happen on the eve of new years eve, and have a part two on new years eve, and a part three on new years day. and having to give others a smile throughout the whole thing.
i'm just not ready for a new year.
mong thamai
mai ruk leew mong thamai
mong thamai
mai ruk leew mong thamai